“Don’t act thoughtlessly
but try to understand what the Lord wants you to do...
let the Holy Spirit fill you and control you.
Then you will sing…
and you will always give thanks for everything
to God the Father
in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.”
Ephesians 5:17-20 (selected)
Yesterday was day 6 of learning to be a woman who delights in God. I woke up this morning realizing I hadn’t posted anything for that day. And immediately, before I could so much as say Good Morning, I felt shamed.
Gosh, doesn’t the enemy ever sleep in?
It took a full pot of tea and an hour of listening in the Word to understand that my self-imposed write-every-day-this-month is my plan. Neat and tidy and, if I’m not alert and listening, distressingly performance driven.
That very real enemy, who Jesus called, the Accuser, is the ultimate slayer of delight— and of everything beautiful and good.
Does that finger-in-your-face voice ride on your shoulder whispering in your ear?
Do you feel yourself longing for delight but dragging in drudgery and defeat?
Do you sag under the weight of feeling you are never enough and too much all at the same time?
This is what the Father reminded me this morning:
- Our battle is not against flesh and blood or busy schedules or naughty children or not-very-nice people.
- A war is raging in unseen places with a powerful enemy whose primary objective is to separate you and me and our children and everyone we love from the throbbing heart of God.
- If that enemy can defeat us by self-shame and condemnation and feelings of inadequacy, he wins. Even if those feelings are about self-imposed, not-all-that-important-tasks we assign ourselves.
And this beautiful truth:
4. God’s value for me is not based on how well I perform or how hard I work or how disciplined I am. He looks at you and me with the love of a Father who is pleased with what He sees in us. And what does He see? The Father looks at you and at me and instead of seeing our failures and our mess-ups, our inconsistencies and our twisted hypocrisies, He sees Jesus. He sees His son emerging beautifully in us and through us and for us.
Even if we forget. Especially when we forget.
From a heart becoming aware of what keeps me from delight,
P.S. As soon as the rain lets up a little, I am going on a walk to pray for those women I know who are being assaulted by the condemnation of the enemy. I would love to pray for you- if you'll just write your name in the comments I'll "take you with me" on my walk.